March 28th, 2009

I feel so...Relieved.

Now that I am no longer friends with a certain someone, I feel like a lot of weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Like I had been holding my breath ever since I had met him and I just now let it out. I can breathe again. I feel so relieved. I never knew how much being his friend had taken a toll on me. I don't have to worry about any of it anymore. I have a feeling life will be much easier now that I have cut him out of my life. I mean, I know I will still have troubles and worries, but not half as many I had. I honestly had no clue how many of my worries revolved around him.

I might miss having a best friend, but I told him everything. EVERY-FUCKING-THING. And I think that was where all my worries stemmed out from. Having someone know everything can sometimes be comforting, but it also makes you feel very...Vunerable. Which is why I felt obliged to stay his friend and let him walk all over me. I don't have to worry about upsetting him, or drama. He can't control his temper. I was always afraid of what his reaction would be to anything. And all this, I just realized now. But I may not be making much sense.

What I am trying to say is, I am happy we are no longer friends. I won't say shit about your secrets...Whatever.

Thank you Chris, You have taught me a very important lesson. I will never get close to anyone again. You may think I am being sarcastic or bitter, but truely, I want to thank you.